Wednesday, November 30, 2005
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Tuesday, November 29, 2005
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Another beautiful day.
Sarah's birthday, today. I wish you the best, Sarah. Finally... the last few of us have reached adulthood. Now let's await your 45th birthday. =p
btw... had a great time with Henry tonight, eh?
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A call from Aik this afternoon. Seems like the guys are going for Clara's chalet. I didnt wanna go, initially, cause I have school the next day.
Well im glad i went anyways.
(and i saw SHERYL!!!! LOL LOL!!! i'm fainting~~ )
Such a sweet time. All the way till 1am (now).
Jason reappeared. I am indeed delighted. He has agreed to come for this friday;s weekly gatherings. I hope to see him from then on.
With Jason, recollection of the old days ensues.
No words (that i can use) can express the deepest feelings I have to see the people I love an adore for 5 years come back together again after long periods of absence.
It's even more tear-jerking to see that they have matured in thinking and reasoning and looks.
I will most defnitely be depressed, long time, if one of them decides to leave... to leave this little cult. This gang.
Ive spent more time and money on them then i have with anyone else, be it my girlfriends or family.
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I;m in love.
Deeply.
But love, to me....
....... well.... I''m not a good lover. maybe good in bed but....
I shouldnt start a relationship. Right?
I'm just too haphazard. Too fickle. Too spontaneous.
I''m afraid no one could keep up with me. Not even Javis. How else would you expect a younger.... calm... pretty... slim.... girl..... keep up?
I long for the day i could sing and dance and role play with a woman, at home, in public, in bed, with a wedding ring to tie us together.
I admit. I took up performing arts so that i could do these to that special woman who might plop down one day.
Singing. Dancing. Acting. Dress Up.
oh~~~~ ....
I am so in love.....
BUT NO!
My heart shall remain cold towards affections of this! But for what? For I am too proud of a man to give in to women. A chauvanist! I hug women whenever i feel like it, not when they need it! I express feigned love for the heck of it, to see how they;ll react, at the drop of a hat, not because i really mean it! I drop heaps of cash right infront of her to "buy" her love, not to earn it through simplistic, honest means!
.......
.... but i';m sure... someone... some woman... would change all that.
because i know. ive seen her. Smelt her. Touched her. Waved at her. Spoke to her. Laughed at her. Laughed with her. Sticked my tongue out at her.
This... woman... i so adore.
I'm in love.....
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EDIT.
I jsut had to add more.
I liek the way how Henry, Aik, Tharik, Viky, Jason and Don and the rest of our friends e.g G4 and erwin come together as the two little girls turn 17.
it's just one of those times i can feel cooperation across many types of relationships (No, Swee Swee (Ryan... lol..) staring at my balls is not testimony to us having a relationship. =p ) just to bring forward something for the birthday girls.
Next year, when i turn 18, when i can drive, I'll drive. I'll lay myself down, be a chauffeur for them. For their honeymoon. For their dates. For their secret meetings. And ill even throw in my suit and white gloves and pilot's hat as well. Not forgetting my polished belt buckle and leather shoes from Italy ( or Spain... :S). Now, if only my Altis was black.... Champagne is just so icky...
I'll pretty much do anything, really. Almost. Still not so keen on the "eat shit, jump off the building" stuff though..
Sunday, November 27, 2005
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If you can read this, the week of intense photography has ended.
Some of you may be expecting something extravagant at the last day of this event. But. no.
All i can say is that whenever i look through the viewfinder, i get to appreciate more on what is already there for us.
Too dreamy? To prophetic? well...
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I spent the day free of the camera by my side.
I dressed myself up comfortably. Got out of the house when i wanted. Did things whenever i felt like it. Slowed my pace along the street, and enjoyed everything that was around me.
I smiled at the bus driver. I waved at the lady sitting in the bus stop when she kept staring at me. I whistled around the whole of Yishun. I hopped. I twirled. I flicked a coin. I walked backwards. I hopped backwards. I sang. I made faces. I put my hand in my pockets. I am in love.....
Such a wonderful day. Clara received her birthday present from me. Sarah got her dad's item back. Tharik got his soccer video back plus Doom 3 to boot. Javis called. I sipped my musroom soup, bought at 7-11, slowly, while leaning against a pillar, beside a road, waiting for the traffic light. The simple things i can do that makes me happier than having famous people around me or having 6 million dollars in my bank or living in a hotel or having six condominiums or having a new phone or speaking lawyer/poetic english.
I spent the long walk back home in the night whistling, and strafing and hopping. Yes, people looked. But i bowed and waved and smiled at them. And i continued on. No one could stop me. The street was mine.
I'm in love....
Saturday, November 26, 2005
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The second last day of intense photographing.
I guess the time is just right, i can see the disadvantages of digital photography emerging and the height of my photographing techniques is starting to shallow off.
So i got out of the house today around one, dressed in slippers and a faded shirt with the S1 Pro in my hands.
and walked around in the drizzle taking photos at really familiar places. At the same time i went location scouting for my new war video,"Drafted In".
We start off here. North View sits, seemingly harmlessly, at the right end of the horizon.
Then thee's the drain at near to the newly built Yishun Street 31. That new street destroyed the very beauty of the area; forests, and a thick mist to drive through early int he morning. I remember last year when i was always amazed, sitting in the front seat of the car, whenever that thick mist came into view. Sometimes rainbows would form and sunrays would form really holistic patterns.
Destruction, once again. This used to be a place where there were thick foliage of tall grass. I came here, along with a few cadets, to pluck grass to be used for our "sniper camouflage" for CCA open house 2003. Now it's all gone.
Then off i went for location scouting. First stop....
Yishun Park.
I never noticed this in Safra...
This is where digital photography is at a disadvantage. It is just impossible for the rigid make up of pixels to be able to detect slight gradual changes in colour and tone and brightness and contrast and everything like that. So what i got in the shadows was just a hint of the beams, then black. And on film, you dont get bleeding of the sky... i.e. the white sky bleeds into the edges of the subject. If you look back on the previous post, there's this pic of mitch with shaun in the background, which was shot on film. Note how the light falling on Mitch's shoulders is accurately captured. With digital, we'd see a halo effect instead.
That;s it.
wait... that's it!?!?
yeah.. that's it. I have 25 more photos which were taken today, but they're nothing special. :)
.. except, maybe this.
this is where Vis and i would walk, to his house. I'd pick him up.. i'd send him home.. we'd be walking along here in the middle of the night... sleeping over.. .... .... Yeah and it is on this road that I last had a real conversation with him, in person. :(
Oh and guess what, i was walking down the stairs, leading to my house, and after fumbling through ll my pockets, i cant find me key!
but i walked towards my door anyways.
and gasp! there was my key, hanging on that heavy heavy duty silver lock! lol...
I was out for two hrs today as well. First thing i did when i got into the house was point my camera into the living room, so in case an intruder appears, snap!
Well noone came in, so into my room i went. tra la la la...
Friday, November 25, 2005
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Two hours of school today, the usual. So I ended at 11am... where to next?
I'm proud to announce that the next war video is under pre-production stage now. Next year will be a special year for NVAU in terms of media development. Next year, the unit will be able to boast FOUR new videos, almost entirely fiction (meaning.. i get to direct what happens onscreen.. instead of plain old shots after shots of marching and crawling....zzz).
There will be a five minutes video for the CCA Open House, the usual.
Then a 10 to 20 minutes short film, that has been given complete liberty in terms of creativity and artistry (meaning, i can have the entire action sequence i've imagined onscreen).
A modified corporate video for the unit (or whole of NCC, if i have the time).
and lastly, a video to commemorate NVAU's 10th anniversary, which will be shown in our own hotel function somewhere in the city (now i can wear my suit...)
Ive talked to Sir about payments and all and he agrees to find people to help fund the project. and he was talking in the hundreds.
Ive already thought of my position; cameraman cum director cum scriptwriter cum art director. lol.
But then again, i'm willing to give some of my positions away to more worthy people (though i'll be holding on very tightly to the scriptwriting and cameraman position.)
and all these happened in North View, so which means, pictures from there. Today's aim was to take pictures of places people are familiar about and take them in such a way that they've never seen it before.
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Friday gathering again. just a short one this time. I'm leaving for Johor soon. Donald was around today, Viky cant make it; he was at the temple again.
Dinner at Long John, teased a cute girl, played pool at SAFRA, saw a real nice sunset (and took the oppurtunity to photograph it), walked my little brother, Sze Aik halfway home, and here I am.
I'm telling you, I'm really going nuts with this Friday gathering; it's really a time i can loosen my tie, unbuckle my belt, ruffle up the hair and walk around with an erection (lol).
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Pictures.
Shah eating in the canteen. He was so "shy"....
...but i was persistent.. and this is what came out when he hid behind the bags... lol...
Void deck outside NVSS. ooo... can we just feel the doom?
Yellow...
Green... i mean.. red...
The loudhailer at the concourse.
The stairs of doom many of us had to climb to reach the cell they call "classrooms".
Chipping of the paint on the rails infront of the office. We've all touched that chipping, havent we?
The sunset. Aww... taken from Safra.
Pool!!! and aik peeks...
Go, Aik!
Sexy Henry-Sarah's-boyfriend takes aim.... but i wanted to intensify the overall feeling of this pic so...
i cropped the picture. Then noise was added...
Oh noes! Tharik shouting!!
Just an everyday shot... or is it? watch the expressions and tell a story.
Henry aims again.
Then off i go home....
Passin by golden lights...
and fascinated by them.
Okay the end. I have to run off now. see ya! (omg did i just say,"see ya?")
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and i saw Sheryl today!!! OMG OMG!!!! i'm fainting. -.-
Thursday, November 24, 2005
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Today was suppsoed to be another day of intense photographing (i'm starting to be more selective in taking photos....) but things took a turn.
I intended of taking pictures at Tampines, and along the way, get Aik and Tharik home.
All trouble started when i stepped out of the train at Tampines MRT; i was surrounded by THEM!!! (them... you know... "them".) EVERYWHERE!!
This is where i found out that my racist feelings are not something subliminal. It's very very intense, in fact.
I just had to leave the place! Everywhere i turned, i see those thick lips and curly hair and funny posture moving towards me and that disgusting accent. I felt pressurized, truly.
The girls, URGH! They kept looking! It's nightmare! I walked, scanning through the crowds for any Chinese, and feeling slightly relieved when i saw one.
But... oh dear... they have been invaded as well! the fashion!
I thought that there was a quota to the percentage of one race that could stay in an area... i think Tampines has violated its quota by about a mile. The national quota is 15 percent, i guess. Tampines probably has 60 - 80 percent.
I took a seat at the Mc Don at the interchange and hid in my own bubble as i watched everyone go by. Everywhere! from young to old! it's all them! the way they stare at you.. their hair.. ARGHH!! I felt my shoulders tense. The camera strap deliberately entangled around my legs so that noone could yank it away. I kept my wallet in check as well and got into the mood to fight if anything were to happen.
Aik came, and i have never felt better. Seeing him in his red shirt and slippers and that ever-innocent look......
I thought the bus would be a haven for me. NO. NEVER. I got on the bus and I was literally SURROUNDED by them!
Kid you I'm not, I was sweating (and that's not because f the three piece clothing iw as wearing) despite the aircon at full above me. The smell... the accent... the presence... !!!
I spent the whole half hour trip back to Yishun facing Aik, standing close to him and tucking in my head. I was THAT pressurized. I think Aik was also taken aback at my state.
Once the bus got into Yishun, I got off straight away at the first couple of bus stops. Enough. It was too much for me. I asked Aik how he and Tharik and Don can even stand through a situation such as this EVERYDAY.
Now i think i need some real explanation for my reaction. I think this happens only in Singapore. I feel better in Malaysia....
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Not many interesting pictures today. My time in Tampines threw me off balance.
Not exactly a portfolio-worthy shot. This is the TV Studio room (the stage...).. where we do studio productions like talk shows, demo shows, intervews and the like. It's super fun (and super cold, when the lights are off.) That's just one of the three cameras we could use. Realy neat stuff.
Joyce was our presenter today. I had a great time running across the floor, flipping cards for the camera to shoot.
The control room of the studio. Visual mixers (where Thena is) are here including CG titles and all that (where Josephine is). We have 6 monitors to the right of the camera as well. pretty much like an air traffic control room, only safer. :) And that;s Shaunie-shaun-shaun in green/blue. he was our director today.
Shadow shot! Shadow shot!
The only better picture i took today that was part of my photographing plan. Taken from blk 305 (that's me block! -.- ), level 5.Time was 1845 hrs...
My army helmet. Nothing much here.
That's all folks!
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My mum informed me that my cousin has set up a website for "Malay-Muslim photographers".
I asked on why the emphasis on Malay-muslims and she gave me reason that the "non-believers" also have their own website so why not "us"?
I brushed her off (i wouldnt understand what would be said anyways.) and she turned around and asked (nonchalantly...),"Are you anti-malay?"
mum sure knows her son.
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