"eh audi... do you have 20 bucks?"
"uh ok wait... yeah i have 60...."
"u can come down to my house now?"
"ok..."
So i took a bus down to my friend's house. He didnt tell me what he needed it for.
We met at the kopitiam after that with his girlfriend.... and he didnt really mentioned anything about the money.
So i asked him whts the money for.
"oh uh. i tell you then you dont tell anyone."
Classic pre-secret-telling line.
"im gonna buy drugs.."
"FUCK YOUR MOTHER LA KNN!"
Then he went on about its ok - its like me firstly thinking smoking is not a good thing then suddenly i start smoking.. same logic. THat rationalisation got me for a while but your friend starts taking drugs? I wasnt prepared for that.
But eventually he laughed and said he was joking. His girlfriend giggling.
Afternoon turned to night. And we ended up at his home. In his room. Noone was around.
A bit of small talk... a few bits of puffing and some girl guy discussions.
"Eh.. do you think X and A got fuck anot?" he asked.
"lol dunno... maybe. most probably."
"lol he got wan... that time he told me his girlfriend gave him a handjob. Then sprayed on the towel."
"lmao..."
over the years i've heard of my friends doing each other here and there. One day i'd come and they'd pull me to one corner and say that last night they scored. Then it was the usual blabbering of whether she was a screamer or a moaner. It's weird at first.... you grew up with him for the past 4 years... then images of them going at it starting popping up and it jsut feels strange. Eventually you get used to it.
Back to my friend's house: The atmosphere stalled for a while and i was sitting there having small talks with him. He had his girlfriend lying in his arms.
Soon enough we were on the same bed lying down. It's not anything significant..... we always lay on each other's bed just talking.
Then i found them kissing each other. From the periodical peck on cheek to french kissing.
Obviously it felt a bit weird but i've seen everyone doing that... trying to make me jealous since i'm single.
I thought i should leave. But he told me to stay.
Maybe i shouldve left.
Next thing i know my friend and his girl started pulling each other's clothes off.
First came the top.... then his top... then her pants... then his... and the glorifying feeling of taking off the boxers and panties. There they are having sex right infornt of my eyes.
Yes... my friends were fucking each other. Right there and then.
"Eh record lei audi."
This is probably the biggest shock i've had. There over here was this guy who knows me inside out and vice versa.... I remember him 4 years ago being that little innocent boy playing hide and seek with me and now here he is right infront of me pounding on his girlfriend, his dick and where it's going to clear for me to see.
There are times when i hear about my best friend getting a handjob from his girl during the o level days... at his home...at her home... in class.... and it really got to me right in the heart. Straight to depression. In a way.. when we get these kinda news it just bites you in some odd way and we feel betrayed in a sense.
But then from handjobs it went up to blowjobs and eventually they're fucking all night long.
Sometimes the people i think are so decent and innocent (their girlfriends) end up losing their virginity. I remember them screaming for people to shut up when they talk about sex.
You know the kinda situation where when you hang out with short people... you become short... and when you hang out with smokers.... you become smokers yourself?
Ever since i hit puberty in 2000, i've had my own fair share of hanky-panky. It first started in Grade 6. On the last day of school a girl of mine did more than "playful groping". It's kinda difficult for me to break this over here since many people i dont know (and my sister) are reading this.
I've gotten handjobs.. blowjobs... and all that (no fucking, anally or vaginal, though) throughout the years with my ex-girlfriends that eventually when i came to Ngee Ann i was truly very open to this whole idea of "fuck buddies". Too open that it becomes immature.
A classmate of mine sensed this vibe in me........ and i made one of the biggest mistakes in my life. I was engaged in a guy-guy relationship!
Looking back now at that short-lived 1 and a hlf months relationship was pathetically disgusting. But it happened because i was under depression (again) and my whole world was topsy turvy what with all the adjusting to poly life and new ideas and the adult world. On top of that, the big hooha between Vis and me (something still so dark and private that i've never shared with anyone. Not even henry.)
So with that i was looking for some way to get out of it all; find a new social group... review my principles etc etc. Somehow the idea of a same-sex relationship got past the guards.
But then realisation sank in. My senses started working again and a second later i ended everything. All this same-sex sex was just pointless. I realised i wasnt homosexual. But he was. And he took it really bad. We're still int he same class but not talking at all.
And i dont want to. If i ever had to choose to regret something i've done in my life, this is it.
Right after that i made friends with a girl from Business Accountancy. Her name's Tiffany... and we've been okay so far just that she has a boyfriend.... of 3 years. Single once again.
Back at my friend's house, he ejaculated on her. They made a bit more lips smacking and breathed a sigh of satisfaction.
I put my camera down.
"Eh audi.... i hope you dont mind we fuck just now infront of you. I dont know what happened. It just happened." he said as he walked me out of his door.
I'm lost for words.
But the funny thing is.... i dont feel angry. Not a tinge of feeling betrayed. I figured it's just the way life is and have come to accept it; people may do things that you dont expect.
"uh ok wait... yeah i have 60...."
"u can come down to my house now?"
"ok..."
So i took a bus down to my friend's house. He didnt tell me what he needed it for.
We met at the kopitiam after that with his girlfriend.... and he didnt really mentioned anything about the money.
So i asked him whts the money for.
"oh uh. i tell you then you dont tell anyone."
Classic pre-secret-telling line.
"im gonna buy drugs.."
"FUCK YOUR MOTHER LA KNN!"
Then he went on about its ok - its like me firstly thinking smoking is not a good thing then suddenly i start smoking.. same logic. THat rationalisation got me for a while but your friend starts taking drugs? I wasnt prepared for that.
But eventually he laughed and said he was joking. His girlfriend giggling.
Afternoon turned to night. And we ended up at his home. In his room. Noone was around.
A bit of small talk... a few bits of puffing and some girl guy discussions.
"Eh.. do you think X and A got fuck anot?" he asked.
"lol dunno... maybe. most probably."
"lol he got wan... that time he told me his girlfriend gave him a handjob. Then sprayed on the towel."
"lmao..."
over the years i've heard of my friends doing each other here and there. One day i'd come and they'd pull me to one corner and say that last night they scored. Then it was the usual blabbering of whether she was a screamer or a moaner. It's weird at first.... you grew up with him for the past 4 years... then images of them going at it starting popping up and it jsut feels strange. Eventually you get used to it.
Back to my friend's house: The atmosphere stalled for a while and i was sitting there having small talks with him. He had his girlfriend lying in his arms.
Soon enough we were on the same bed lying down. It's not anything significant..... we always lay on each other's bed just talking.
Then i found them kissing each other. From the periodical peck on cheek to french kissing.
Obviously it felt a bit weird but i've seen everyone doing that... trying to make me jealous since i'm single.
I thought i should leave. But he told me to stay.
Maybe i shouldve left.
Next thing i know my friend and his girl started pulling each other's clothes off.
First came the top.... then his top... then her pants... then his... and the glorifying feeling of taking off the boxers and panties. There they are having sex right infornt of my eyes.
Yes... my friends were fucking each other. Right there and then.
"Eh record lei audi."
This is probably the biggest shock i've had. There over here was this guy who knows me inside out and vice versa.... I remember him 4 years ago being that little innocent boy playing hide and seek with me and now here he is right infront of me pounding on his girlfriend, his dick and where it's going to clear for me to see.
There are times when i hear about my best friend getting a handjob from his girl during the o level days... at his home...at her home... in class.... and it really got to me right in the heart. Straight to depression. In a way.. when we get these kinda news it just bites you in some odd way and we feel betrayed in a sense.
But then from handjobs it went up to blowjobs and eventually they're fucking all night long.
Sometimes the people i think are so decent and innocent (their girlfriends) end up losing their virginity. I remember them screaming for people to shut up when they talk about sex.
You know the kinda situation where when you hang out with short people... you become short... and when you hang out with smokers.... you become smokers yourself?
Ever since i hit puberty in 2000, i've had my own fair share of hanky-panky. It first started in Grade 6. On the last day of school a girl of mine did more than "playful groping". It's kinda difficult for me to break this over here since many people i dont know (and my sister) are reading this.
I've gotten handjobs.. blowjobs... and all that (no fucking, anally or vaginal, though) throughout the years with my ex-girlfriends that eventually when i came to Ngee Ann i was truly very open to this whole idea of "fuck buddies". Too open that it becomes immature.
A classmate of mine sensed this vibe in me........ and i made one of the biggest mistakes in my life. I was engaged in a guy-guy relationship!
Looking back now at that short-lived 1 and a hlf months relationship was pathetically disgusting. But it happened because i was under depression (again) and my whole world was topsy turvy what with all the adjusting to poly life and new ideas and the adult world. On top of that, the big hooha between Vis and me (something still so dark and private that i've never shared with anyone. Not even henry.)
So with that i was looking for some way to get out of it all; find a new social group... review my principles etc etc. Somehow the idea of a same-sex relationship got past the guards.
But then realisation sank in. My senses started working again and a second later i ended everything. All this same-sex sex was just pointless. I realised i wasnt homosexual. But he was. And he took it really bad. We're still int he same class but not talking at all.
And i dont want to. If i ever had to choose to regret something i've done in my life, this is it.
Right after that i made friends with a girl from Business Accountancy. Her name's Tiffany... and we've been okay so far just that she has a boyfriend.... of 3 years. Single once again.
Back at my friend's house, he ejaculated on her. They made a bit more lips smacking and breathed a sigh of satisfaction.
I put my camera down.
"Eh audi.... i hope you dont mind we fuck just now infront of you. I dont know what happened. It just happened." he said as he walked me out of his door.
I'm lost for words.
But the funny thing is.... i dont feel angry. Not a tinge of feeling betrayed. I figured it's just the way life is and have come to accept it; people may do things that you dont expect.
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