School started last monday. I havent really been looking forward to school. Not after realising that whatever i did in school, I'd receive results that simply do not reflect how much i'm passionate about. For example, I recieved all Cs for the three modules I really put my heart into like Drama Production and Non-fiction. But then even after i bombed Animation class, not even doing anything for my final assignment, literally, I received a D.
A fucking D! I passed! But i didnt do anything!
but then i realised why i still havent picked up the course drop-out form.
It's because of these people.
Even though we're all very aggressive in our own right...
... at the end of the day we can still sit down together and laugh our asses off. I remember many times I've pushed myself harder simply because i know they are there behind me, watching, expecting a polished work out of me.
I admit i dont think i'm special or unique or better off than others and some works i pass in arent exactly as polished as i'd like them to be. But at least i know it's better than the last work i did, i'm happy. You dont change from zero to hero in an instant.
But of course there are times I wished i could do things my way... but sometimes being force to do things you dont like... you find things that would actually help you.
Oh god.. whatever...
my smoking buddies + jowell somewhere offscreen, who started to smoke again.
During the holidays i really believed i could stop smoking. Especially after a major asthma attack i had a week ago. I almost went to hospital for that.
But i dont really bother. I even gave myself five more years to live. I've come to accept it, to be honest. But that's another story.
I am thankful for the three months i was MIA from Henry and gang. Cos i learnt a lot about living from these people.
Ronald. Working at a pub.
Daryl Lim... my brader brader. Just goes to show that you dont have to be the top or outstanding student to actually be well off.
Quite a lot of interesting modules for this semester like regional cinema and World Issues from a Singapore Perspective. At least the latter module allows me to start my public speaking nonsense that i like to do.
I'm looking forward for Directing for Camera module. It's the module i'm settling for to make my first action/war film in FSV. I came in for the interview with my Battle of the Field video, and goddamn i will leave with a better version of it.
I'm looking forward for Directing for Camera module. It's the module i'm settling for to make my first action/war film in FSV. I came in for the interview with my Battle of the Field video, and goddamn i will leave with a better version of it.
Things have been pretty fine this week. Henry is lost in China, busy at work with meetings and such. The internet still isnt up in his apartment so currently i'm doing blind-talk with him via email. Well... at least there's something to keep him company. I dont believe anyone else but me and Sarah are communicating with him there.
Daryl announced that he's working out as well at the gym. Well.. gives me more reason to swim. I'm still stuck at four laps. But that's fine.
My bank account has grown a bit fatter by SGD170 dollars. My paychecque for DW Group is already in the office along with my dad's bedpad.
I'm still under depression. Same old me. But i guess the next four months would be a great journey.
I can taste it already.
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