Ive posed this question to a lot of people, listening at their opinions.
What if i stopped blogging?
Ive been blogging for about two years now. I've seen the readership rise and fall and fall and fall some more and rise again and rise some more. It has documented my life from before the O level days, my break into the miniature modelling market, to how i got into FSV (including the interview), to how our "band of brothers" deteriorated, to my lust for adventure and even my experience in latin dance!
Blogging is a big part of my life. During the photoshopping days it usually takes me about 4 to 5 hours to blog.. that includes importing the photos, editing them, writing the post, uploading the pics to photobucket then publishing. Now it takes about 2 - 3 hours.
I believe in satisfying audiences. My audiences are you. I've met a lot of nice people out there like Future Soldier, Hyde and Romano.... all i dont know their faces (except hyde). It's normally because of this sense that someone is watching me that i feel like i have to put in something substantial in my posts.
Which of course.... leads me to make all those "crazy" decisions; going to the dentist, meeting sly, buying Kenny Sia's camera, travelling to Kuching, all night cycling, making films, scoring in school and also smoking, noise singapore, singapore idol etc etc.
It just gives everyone else something nice to read. I'm essentially a people-pleaser. Not an ass-kisser... but someone who likes to make those on "my side" happy.
And kill all their enemies muahaha.... u noe.. queer stuff...
In a way.. my mission is to spread this idea of "life doesnt suck". And at the back of my head as i blog is just that somewhere out there, tiny as it is my blog readership, something will click in someone's brain and he'd just go, "hey this guy's right! i should stop whining!"
But that's difficult. I find that people want angry, short and fantasy-like posts. The kind where the blogger imagines himself as this "troubled being in the evil machine of life".
People dont recognise me on the streets. I'm not clara. I get notes sometimes that ppl go, "OMG i saw clara!!!! i read her blog!!!"
And the irony is these people know her when i publicised her address here. (and stop asking for her number dammit!!!)
And then i realised that guy bloggers dont get the fame as easily as girls. Because girls can flaunt their breasts and bikinis and guys are kinda involved in a sense that.... we go out looking for stuff like these. Unless either one is faggotish... guy bloggers dont really fare in popularity.
But thats okay.... a friend of mine came in and said Meinbereich was the most influential blog to him. Another said it's his favourite blog.
And i think that's enough. I'm happy.
and it doesnt matter! At least we guys know that those we're getting are interested in our writing rather than our dicks!
Over the years i've reworked and redid my style. I played with html.. i learnt photoshop... i learnt of youtube and defined my own style to blogging. Im happy that people have adapted elements of my style into their own blogs. Like kwang wei. look at him! he has TONS of videos up now of school life!
But then.. am i gonna blog forever?
Henry warned that i'd be letting down a lot of people if i were to stop. Hasrul promised he'd be the first to kill me. My sister will just go "OI" twenty times per second on my tagboard.
But.. i dont know.. i have this feeling that i should live in the real world.. meet real people.. and socialise in that way. For me, the blogging world and the real world are two entirely diffrent things. THe moment i step into my room i have this image if knights and castles and druids priests and all the anger and rage and that sickening feeling of confinement sinks in. I always have many things to say. Always. And it's impossible (and anally boring) for me to blog everything down. In real life i get immediete feedback and it's all spontaneous.....
Hasrul, Vis, Tanny and Henry would understand what a speech i can give. Hasrul has endured me giving a spontaneous speech for four hours a few days ago.
A lot of unneccessary squabbles have occured because of this computer to computer communication. It's just that absence of seeing or hearing that person.
When i say "ok that sucks" you can either read it with the intonation that i'm saying, "wahtever" or "ok thats not good lets try sth else."
I wonder if i didnt blog.... who would be my friends now? How would i entertain henry? how would i make tanny know what i'm up to? maybe that special girl is out there reading? would donald still be around? wil jia hui still call me sexy?
Maybe if i didnt blog i'd have much more stronger bonding between friends? because we're not tied to msn and all that.
But... i dont know.... i've changed so much just for this blog. Just to entertain. I envision it to be a sort of soap opera for you guys. See me rise... see me fall... (though not on purpose i swear!).
So give and take.... i've decided when i'd stop blogging.
Like all stories in the world, it ends when everything wraps up and everything is complete. I have an empty hole in my life right now and that is.... i'm single.
I need a female figure in my life. A powerful woman to kick me back and make me human. Someone to control my rage. This woman might very well be the last helping hand i need to reach that overpowering sense of glory! That's what i need! A life partner.
Once i've found that special girl, the story wraps up, and the drama is over. Maybe i'd return to blog. Maybe i'd start another with her. Or maybe i wont.
But the thing is...dont you think it's just the perfect ending to a story?
Or maybe you have other ideas?
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What if i stopped blogging?
Ive been blogging for about two years now. I've seen the readership rise and fall and fall and fall some more and rise again and rise some more. It has documented my life from before the O level days, my break into the miniature modelling market, to how i got into FSV (including the interview), to how our "band of brothers" deteriorated, to my lust for adventure and even my experience in latin dance!
Blogging is a big part of my life. During the photoshopping days it usually takes me about 4 to 5 hours to blog.. that includes importing the photos, editing them, writing the post, uploading the pics to photobucket then publishing. Now it takes about 2 - 3 hours.
I believe in satisfying audiences. My audiences are you. I've met a lot of nice people out there like Future Soldier, Hyde and Romano.... all i dont know their faces (except hyde). It's normally because of this sense that someone is watching me that i feel like i have to put in something substantial in my posts.
Which of course.... leads me to make all those "crazy" decisions; going to the dentist, meeting sly, buying Kenny Sia's camera, travelling to Kuching, all night cycling, making films, scoring in school and also smoking, noise singapore, singapore idol etc etc.
It just gives everyone else something nice to read. I'm essentially a people-pleaser. Not an ass-kisser... but someone who likes to make those on "my side" happy.
And kill all their enemies muahaha.... u noe.. queer stuff...
In a way.. my mission is to spread this idea of "life doesnt suck". And at the back of my head as i blog is just that somewhere out there, tiny as it is my blog readership, something will click in someone's brain and he'd just go, "hey this guy's right! i should stop whining!"
But that's difficult. I find that people want angry, short and fantasy-like posts. The kind where the blogger imagines himself as this "troubled being in the evil machine of life".
People dont recognise me on the streets. I'm not clara. I get notes sometimes that ppl go, "OMG i saw clara!!!! i read her blog!!!"
And the irony is these people know her when i publicised her address here. (and stop asking for her number dammit!!!)
And then i realised that guy bloggers dont get the fame as easily as girls. Because girls can flaunt their breasts and bikinis and guys are kinda involved in a sense that.... we go out looking for stuff like these. Unless either one is faggotish... guy bloggers dont really fare in popularity.
But thats okay.... a friend of mine came in and said Meinbereich was the most influential blog to him. Another said it's his favourite blog.
And i think that's enough. I'm happy.
and it doesnt matter! At least we guys know that those we're getting are interested in our writing rather than our dicks!
Over the years i've reworked and redid my style. I played with html.. i learnt photoshop... i learnt of youtube and defined my own style to blogging. Im happy that people have adapted elements of my style into their own blogs. Like kwang wei. look at him! he has TONS of videos up now of school life!
But then.. am i gonna blog forever?
Henry warned that i'd be letting down a lot of people if i were to stop. Hasrul promised he'd be the first to kill me. My sister will just go "OI" twenty times per second on my tagboard.
But.. i dont know.. i have this feeling that i should live in the real world.. meet real people.. and socialise in that way. For me, the blogging world and the real world are two entirely diffrent things. THe moment i step into my room i have this image if knights and castles and druids priests and all the anger and rage and that sickening feeling of confinement sinks in. I always have many things to say. Always. And it's impossible (and anally boring) for me to blog everything down. In real life i get immediete feedback and it's all spontaneous.....
Hasrul, Vis, Tanny and Henry would understand what a speech i can give. Hasrul has endured me giving a spontaneous speech for four hours a few days ago.
A lot of unneccessary squabbles have occured because of this computer to computer communication. It's just that absence of seeing or hearing that person.
When i say "ok that sucks" you can either read it with the intonation that i'm saying, "wahtever" or "ok thats not good lets try sth else."
I wonder if i didnt blog.... who would be my friends now? How would i entertain henry? how would i make tanny know what i'm up to? maybe that special girl is out there reading? would donald still be around? wil jia hui still call me sexy?
Maybe if i didnt blog i'd have much more stronger bonding between friends? because we're not tied to msn and all that.
But... i dont know.... i've changed so much just for this blog. Just to entertain. I envision it to be a sort of soap opera for you guys. See me rise... see me fall... (though not on purpose i swear!).
So give and take.... i've decided when i'd stop blogging.
Like all stories in the world, it ends when everything wraps up and everything is complete. I have an empty hole in my life right now and that is.... i'm single.
I need a female figure in my life. A powerful woman to kick me back and make me human. Someone to control my rage. This woman might very well be the last helping hand i need to reach that overpowering sense of glory! That's what i need! A life partner.
Once i've found that special girl, the story wraps up, and the drama is over. Maybe i'd return to blog. Maybe i'd start another with her. Or maybe i wont.
But the thing is...dont you think it's just the perfect ending to a story?
Or maybe you have other ideas?
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