Wednesday, August 17, 2005
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WOOTZ!!! i finally got my left hand to play Romance in F Major!! well.. the starting part at least.... now to work onmy timing and coordination with my left hand.
and crap... the Creative Prodikeys has only 3 sets of keys (laugh all you want, piano-boys/girls) so i cant play the full intro in one sitting.
well well well.. wht to do wht to do?
Simple.. book the audiotech down in the FMS block, hook up the keyboard there to the audio console and start practising! whoo!!
o otherwise go around ppl's hse to play their pianos.
But then again... the house in Johor is near its completion stage. I have never seen it before (ok... maybe once, last year) but my family and relatives have been going up and down to Johor and back regularly and they keep saying how big the rooms are (compared to Singapore.. pfft... big deal) after they have been extended.
As usual.. my parents.. they want a malay house... so they plan to add wood wood wood and funny flowery grillings (which i think is just ugly and degrading to be called as an art.). Wont too much wood be hazardous? I mean... with wood being flammable and all.
Quite a few things would be going off to Johor as well from my house here. The 30 thousand dollars four piece couch set bought at Da Vinci's would be sent to johor(damn.. i love that couch... ) along with a few more sets of chairs and junk.
Then there'd be space here in Yishun so i thought of buying an upright piano to fill up the space. LOLZ...
Shaun asked me to buy a grand piano for the Johor house but OMG i'm nt tt rich!
and if i bought it for the yishun house then i thnk the piano would be used as a dinner table more often than a musical instrument.
And i just heard that my father's eldest brother (a.ka.... my uncle...) also bought a hse in Johor. and i heard its a three-storey freaking penthouse bungalow!
my god.. ..... singaporeans and their lust for cheap houses in Johor...
and wootz~~ .. my late fraternal grandfather (though ive never seen him alive before) left the family a little gift. My uncle and dad found it in johor just recently (after how many years past his death.. i meant my grandfather).
My grandfather left us a PIECE OF LAND in Johor!!
How big is it?
hmm.. my dad said that we can built FOUR SEMI-DETACHED houses on it PLUS have some extra space for a garden and what not. WOOO!!!!
mUAHAAH...
currently the land is just grass and dead insects.
and we have a problem. The Governemnt in Johor does not ackowlede the land as belonging to my grandfathe (they just put there: Owner.). His name is not there. So now my uncle is getting along to try to put the name there, then change it again to recognidse the family as the owner of that land so we can build sth on it.
wootz...
I dun care man.. im gonna build my own video studio there.Fourwalls, many partitions, simple and clear cut.
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So another plane crashed. This time in Venezuala..
my mum is going over to Kuching this Friday to meet my dad and my sis would be i campus so wootz!!! i'm alone again!!! Whee!!
lolz... but in friday i'll be going over to shaun's place (just going over.. not sleeping... i cant take the risk...) cos there'll be another SHOOTING this week end at bukit batok and pasir ris.
I unveiled the BOB the Secret Weapon to the crew a couple of days ago and they had some fun with it and yes.. they were impressed at how stable the shots have become.
mauahah!!! we will own everyone else in the competition!! mauahah!!
but dang i can feel myself getting sick.... there's a lump behind my throat whihc should be phlegm so i might be getting fever soon. shiote... i cant be absent for the shooting!! I'm the cameraman!! eveything that's gonna appear on-screen will be my job!!
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So this friday at 1250pm ill be over at North View to meet up with Bird-bird (elizabeth lee cui wen). She promised (agreed) to show me her super-duper grade 8 skills on piano playing to me. Will be video-taping her performance on that grand piano sitting by itself in the hall. Then up it goes on this blog!!
muahaha!!!
yeah i thnk i'll be taking up piano lessons soon too.
Quite a few people (and lecturers) have urged me to get a tutor if i wnana play the insturment.
well...
we'll see...
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Tuesday, August 16, 2005
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Racist and prejudiced.
That's what i am.
Either one of those.
By the way.. i found out that Malays and Chinese are of the same race (i learnt another word, called "ethnic group".). Chinese and Malays belong to a race called.... Mongoloids. Yeah.. Mongoloids. We came from Mongolia. And that makes sense if you do a little research.
but i'll still go on with the usual definition we use for "race" here.
I am a rascist. My friends know that. The moment i hear the word "Malay", i think of ungrateful youths that destroy the country with their trends and awful haircuts and speech. if it werent malay youths then, i would think of sickly, obese women with quiet husbands that cant even control a family. And i believe that this is due to the nature of Malay dishes; fattening and unhealthy.
I think im very lucky that i cant enjoy Malay dishes because i just dont have the appetitie for messy food.
My past experiences with Mlays have always been bad. All i see when mixing with people of my ethnic group are wannabes after wannabes after wannabes after bad accents and bad language and bad lifestyle. I never enjoyed company with typical malay youths.
But however, i know that there are Malays out there who are not like those i call "typical".
These are the ones who had the spontainity to step out of that smelly stuffy house and DO something with their talents. I have found that Malays are artistic and practical innature as it that was how their ancestors were, back when skateboards were for children and electric guitars were non-existant.
I respect them. Though there is that tendency to play down Malays.
And my friends would know that i am a great supporter of the Chinese ethnic group.
and i also support Germans, Russians and Japanese and Koreans.
yes i know that those are nationalities and not ethnic groups.
But i also play the prejudiced game.
I also do play down certain... species... of the Chinese community.
And i play down many types of people.
It could be on simple non-sensical reason. For example, accent, looks, lips, head, attire and the way they think.
i cant stand those who have the pessismistic outlook on things.
And there are those that make simple things seem so hard.
"Help me see if u can find aluminium sheet in ur dad's shop."
"You ask my dad lo. i give you his number."
"But you're in his shop working!"
"But it's his shop."
Yes.. some of us here know who im talking abt... who else works in a hardware store?
But at the same time, i also love to bring up those people i like. Eve tthough some people would regard them as bad.
i will support, to my best of my abilitlies, those that i think deserve it.
I will tell people what he has done that i think is remarkable, in a sensible way (meaining i wun brag.)
In addition to my prejudiced and rascist qualities, I am also sort of a nationalist.
Singapore and its people are on its own to other countries.
I get very irritated when I hear Singaporeans talking about how he has a house in Canada and so on or have his brother studying in Australia and they make such a big deal out of it.
ooo aaa australia..... western!... oo... waaa....
And we ponder on why our country is lackingof talents.
our good talents are running off to other countries.
I know that the government is strict.... the government wants business-oriented occupations rather than "artsy-fartsy" film making jobs.
but dont u think that if there was actually the DEMAND for the government to recognise the aesthetics on greater levels, the industry itself will grow.
It's common sense.
But some high-headed people just wanna run off to some place.
Singapore is your country... work for it dammit!
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Rascist. Prejudiced. Nationalist.
And all these three are contraversial to each other.
How can i be a nationalist when i am prejudiced to even MY OWN people?
And how can i be prejudiced if i am rascist?
......
I adore Hitler.
Hitler was a great man.
Yes. He prosecuted the Jews. I seriously think that the Jews were fine. but the Holy Book has stated that Muslims and Jews will NEVER get along. We can eat each other's food but we cant SLEEPOVER at each other's houses. So whtever... mybe killing the Jews were beneficial to the world? Well...
For a single man... a man with one testivle (rumours....)... a man that suffered from mustard gas attack in World War 1 and a man that was regularly sick and artistically inclined ( dont we just sound so similar. haha....) ... to lead an entire country..... millions of the Hitler Jugend (hitler's Youths)..... the formations of Panzer divisions (armoured) and a powerful Luftwaffe (Air Force) with nothing but just speeches and speeches.
Hitler hypnotised his people. The Nazi flag itself was hypnotic. Red, White and Black. The boldness and contrasat cupled witht he swirling swastika. He was a smart guy indeed.
If you ever get to see videos of hitler giving his speeches... you would notice his flying arms. Hitler speaks with an energy so powerful yet controlable that is shown through his quick, fluent but stiff arm movements. Sometimes he would move his arms slowly to his chest and shot it towards the audience at the beginning of a syllable.
we all should thank hitler. Firstly for the invention of rockets by scientists under his command (here coems the jet plane era). Then the advances of technology and tank warfare (Germany built millions of tanks of many different variants! They mixed and matched turrets and hulls of their available tanks to create very impressive and complicated tanks int he beginning of the war.) Germany had the best Air Force at the start of World war 2. The british were still flying on paper kites when the first german planes were already rolling out of the factories. The germans pioneered the jet plane (though they had no idea how to control a jet plane effectively.) and also the flying sacuer or wht we would refer to as "U.F.O.s".
Yes... UFOs are real. They are indeed flying saucers of the superpower's military. but u dun se any flying around cos it was difficult to control a sliding disc in mid air so UFO projects were scrapped.
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My 8 week break is coming soon. Maybe 3 more weeks or so. I dont know. I rely on my crew a lot when it comes to timing and paperwork. I know myself: I cant do paperwork nor can i do things like memorizing easily.
But i think i can do a lot of things with my hands.
This coming 8 week break would be a transformation period for me.
I think i would be alone visiting places in Singapore. Doing what? Hmm...
Its kind of comforting to know that we are able to spend time alone. I used to be the kind that needed someone everywhere i went. But things changed when my friends kept on saying no to accompanying me. Most probably because the places i plan to go to are of no interest to them. So i learnt as well, during the previous 6 months break, how to spend time alone. And i have enjoyed it a lot.
I'll be writing many stories i guess. Sitting down alone along Clarke Quay (hope those damned druggies dont get to me) scribbling and drawing on little pices of paper.
After i saw Shaun's many pictures taken on his fine semi-pro/pro camera, i think i find photography interesting to dwell into. I did a little bit of surfing these few weeks and i think i would be capturing black and white photos most probably. I thin kthat without colours, more details can be seen and maybe the story in the photograph gets to the viewer much more easily.
Otherwise i'll be playing with lighting, photgraphing only during sunsets and sunrises.
But i need a camera first. dotz.
But of course... my love... my dv-camera.... will not be neglected. She's been experiencing some problems lately but that has been cleared thanks to the guy taking care of millions of dollars worht of equipment, Mr. Shukor.
Mr. Shukor is a nice Malay man. I think my view of him as being just another unintelligent person doing administrative work behind the counter who know nothing about what he's giving out from the cage has changed today.
i spotted a Canon XL-1 camera packaging box in the cage and asked him a few questions abt it.
He answered the questions.. and soon enough, we started talking about cameras (i found out that my beloved XM-2 is similar to the XL-1, just much smaller and less professional looking and that the XL-1 is more preferred than the current PD-150 we're fiddling with now.)
Then he took out a Panasonic videocamera out of somewhere. It was FAT... like the pufferfish species of the video camera kingdom.He let me play around with it a while and told me that Panasonic sent the camera to them for evaluation. Wow man...
I also got to handle the XL-1 for a while. He gave it to me to play around with and wow..... yeah man i was REALLY happy then.
Then he passed me some abnormal-sized brochures for the camera to take home. I'm like... okay...
And he recommended me a place to buy video or camera equipment. No it's not Cathay Photo Store in Peninsula Plaza (Bai Ling Da Sha..lolz..) but some shop in Sim Lim square.
I'll be going there soon for my digital camera. Not forgetting telling the guy there i'm in FMS.
hmm
oh yar shaun.. if you're reading this (duh.. you would be..)... i'm going over to Kranji War Memorial soon to take video. Follow?
=p
Semester's closing.
But i dont want it to.
Because i still want to write stories.
Monday, August 15, 2005
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Remember that funny feeling?
Well it goes like this... it lingers around.... then suddenly it peks up to very high levels... and then nothing..... then BOOM!
sth happens.
And it did!
Today shaun came running to us with his perky butt and told us about the commercial greek plane crashing intot he mountains, but nt before the pilots in the two f16s trailing it saw the commercial plane's pilot and co pilot in awkward positions.
ok tt didnt sound right... one of the pilots were missing and the other dead/fainted/passed out/pased away.
then boom! plane crashes into mountain, killing all 121 passengers on board.
ok so i thought tt story was sth small but today in the train i saw the guy infront of me reading the article on New Paper. Wootz...
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Vicky's suddenly having back problems. I wonder if what he told me that time would come true.
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JAVIS.... oo javis... i wonder i wonder i wonder.
Vis is like a pixie fairy now... minus the costume and feminine-ness.
He answered all sms msges and msn now but will not appear before me.
Its like a conscience or some sort.
So is Vis.... dead?
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I went to policlinic the other day for a check up.
Doctor checked on me (whoo tt tickles. -.-) and said,"You may be suffering from migrane....."
uh-huh ok....
".... and mild depression."
Okay what else can be more surprising?
"And i'm gay!!! Come here, lover boy!"
LOLZ~~!!!
ok the last part wasnt real but yeah i'm having migrane and mild depression whoo hoo!!!
I'm 17 and i already feel so old with all these depressions and stress and relationship problems.
And Shaun wants me to be his boyfriend. Wootz... depression......
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i wanna see donald again.
:)
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Today was Girl-watching Day.
I saw lots. And yes the crew now noes i'm after Ah-lian types. :)
Things get around fast in FSV.
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Oh man i find myself whipping out that accent again. (no.. not the german/russian/french/japanese/malay/british/irish/canadian accent)
You're a heartlander, Audi!!
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So its another day of no-"substance" for some of us here again. Dont u just feel sooooooooo upset?
Give me a topic i'll write it down just for you.
otherwise ill be touching upon lots abt the government (do you know what's a government, firstly?) or stories made up by real-life... er.. happenings.
Bet you like that rite? hearing abt wht the other person did and stuff and how many moles they have on their legs and stuff. Great.... reality TV... what an intelligent choice.
I think we are narrow-minded in some way. That;s why we keep whining and complaining and feel oh-so touchy-mouchy abt little non-existant stuff?
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i think the FSV-ians are the most sensible and matured people in the FMS school (or the entire school maybe). we shun those people who make lame recital-type jokes and whiny ones (ah.. our modern youths... whine whine whine.... esp the girls... whine whine whine... just get up and fucking do sth abt the prob, dammit! why the hell do you have to go bitch about? no balls?).
I thought i was "experienced" in life so far for a 17 year old... i come to FSV and I feel like i have been kept undr a dungeon all my life and told fake stories ab the real world outside. Everyone;s here knows a lot!
Should i go further? Nah.... just giving you all a taste of wht im trying to say. Figure the rest out. Though i think that you might get it the wrong way.
Cmon.. get ur right hemisphere of ur brain kicking in..... we definitely need that for the country's future.
But dont forget that we also depsise those that do NOT work at ALL in a team!
Social loafers and freeloaders should be prosecuted and fed to whiny singaporean girls.
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i think everyone should study social psychology.
Because our teens need that. Badly.
Our teens go through certain phases in their life and they have no idea how to express it.
i found out a lot abt why people do things and stuff (like false memory syndrome or lame relationship shit like "a relationship with conflict is a bad relationship". Yeah everythng's a fairy tale, yeah?).
Evrything falls into place when you study Social Psychology.
the masscommers in FMS definitely need to study it..... and keep their mouths shut..... cos im on the verge to lash out my prejudiced comments on a little note that is stuck somehwere at the MCM corner of the lecture hall.
Evr heard of respect for teachers?
oh ya.. sure.. you;re one of those bastardized people who laugh at teachers.
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Ok so let's talk abt sex and teenagers.... or more precisely, pre-marital sex.
Now... we all know that our teen friends are having sex with god-knows-who already.
Admit it, all of you. How many of your friends are "clean" or "pure"?
I have my fair share of contacts and i dare say that about half of them have done something... if you get what i mean.
it is indeed so COMMON amongst US!
I am aware that religions such as Christianity and Islam FORBIDS pre-marital sex. I can imagine the consequences: person gets AIDS at a young age.. there goes his life... or the person loses the joy of sexual intercourse too early in his life that it just messes up the marriage or that some guys would just start growing larger balls and have a higher levels of testosterone hormones and go around farking everything that walks.
And i am in fact open to the idea of premarital sex.
I saw my classmates having some fun with each other when i was 12. (twleve? yeah.. twelve.. can u imagine that?).
i;ve hjeard stories of how some poepl would do stuff to another while they are sleeping at a sleepover.
And believe me... it is easy for anyone to just reach down into ur pants in the middle of the night.
And nowadays..w ith more people being so "open-minded" (more like free-minded to me) jsut so that they could "go alone with the times"... people just do stuff. Since touching each other on sleepovers is so simpe.. and some girls have kissed how many million boys before her current boyfriend and have been hugged by countless apes in secondary coupled with childish friends who just get a hard-on to see or hear their own friend doing some stuff with their partner... i wont be surprised that one day, premarital sex will be the NORM.
its'sickening.. true.. but i understand the reason for premarital sex.
and yes... even though many of us here are doing it... we're cosidered small time..... compared to western countries. Just look at their porn websites! "Young twinks having sex for the first time".... -.-
In this modern times, we guys are exposed to lots of things that "pollutes" our minds. (listening to rap is also a form of pollution to the mind and music. Rap is crap. and that rhymes.) We were enticed to ecplore sex at young ages! (i watched my first naughty video when i was 5) Even in school.. when goons came around to teach sexuallity education, i think what it only did was to entice us to explore.
Our girls are getting cuter week by week, our guys are getting smoother and smoother with school uniforms on.
The government aslo acknowledges the high number premarital sex amongst our teens. Just look at the "Are you pregnant and confused?" hotline advertisement.
We lack sth. That is.. not many of us were taught how to handle romance.
I mean.. a person's in love... he would definitely have that tingly sensation in his Willy Wonka everytime the girl gets within smelling distance of him. It's just natural! But noone has told him how to DEAL with it. It's an urge. It's there!
Go jack off or sth.
Yeah but after a while.. guy gets bored.. he goes for the bomb.
Sleepover... bang bang bang and there goes his urge. So he dumps girl. Cos why? urge is not there. :) Or maybe they get back together when the guy's period returns.
But i cant fully blame the guy on havin sex at such a young age (15? 17?)
i found out a few years ago that girls are the most freaking sinistercreatures on earth.
Girls ARE hornier than men. Most of them.. not all.
They are like the most hypocritical things ever.. on the outside.. you see a nice little cute girl walking ... shyly talking to u.... but once u get her in bed.. she turns into a bloody ape! She;s all there jumping around and screaming here and there and askining for more. -.- And as a guy.. you get scared! then zoop!... ur thing shrivels up and dies.
And i shudder to think how those people we call nerds are in bed. I think maybe that's why we dun hear from them or the person the guy they married after the wediing is over.
Premarital sex is common amongst us teens.
And i think even though some may say that they dont do it... i am ready to plonk a large sum of my savings on a bet to say that they have at least done some touching and groping here and there or even having sex!
No i havent had sex before. LOLZ!!!
But ill be soo pissed if some people i knew had actually had sex. First thing i might do is give either one of them a right hand on the lips.
Cos essentially... it's NOT RIGHT....
but stuff happens and i understand.
Sunday, August 14, 2005
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Okay.... the filming was in pasir ris.. ok fine.
I took the train from Yishun to City hall and then pasir ris.
I reached Tampines about 50 minutes later from Yishun...
Audi audi.... coldnt you have just took a 20-minute BUS ride from yishn to tampines and a train stop to Pasir Ris?!!??!!
ZZZ... fine fine!!! I know!
but i manged to explore the east today (from the train, at least). Such a fine area.
I spent my toddler years around Eunos (lorong sarina, anyone?) cos since that's my grandmother's place. And just passing through the station just "wow-ed" me!
i saw real tall and white hong kong-type buildings passing through me and i'm like, "wow!!! That's a sweet building!"
Then that lady-voice which doesnt seem to sound older with each new addition to the announcement system throughtout the years comes up.
"Eunos.."
Freak, man! I put on my goldfish eyes stared out of the train window and omg everything like the buildings look so much smaller than i remmeber!
Well except maybe for that old tree outside the station.. ok that thing grew...
I also passed by Aljunied and no, i thought, that cant be Aljunied.. it looks so Hougang-ish! I remeber it used to look like some marshland or sth.
Then the train passed from bedok to tanah merah... shite i saw Bedok View in broad daylight!
And they have a freaking garden on the roofs now! and they took over that old promary school too! and the building now blue!
freak man! i went there in 2001 and everything was so biege.
Pasir Ris interchange.. ohman that was nice. 403 had some pms problem so i waited there... top of the queue... oogling at people.
I made some observations.
i find that Malay youths tend to walk with either a stiff neck.. a stiff chest... a stiff leg on one side... a stiff arm.. or for some.. ALL of them.
What.. suddenly its a trend to fake that you have inuured yourself?
"Ooo gimme attention... i got into an accident and now im limping."
Fark off, people... Dun act.
Then comes the tapered pants and crooked fashion sense with all their crooked teeth and demented skulls.
then i dunno.. i think i have a fetish for what peple would call... "ah lians"....
i had dinner with michelle jsut now at long john around 11 and she noticed that all the girls i pointed out whom i thought were attractive had thin/slender legs, small built/petite and just so ah-lian-ish.
Really.. i have no sssues with ah bengs or ah lians.. i jsut find their ways attractive somewhat.
And i;m tlakin abt REAL ah bengs... not those who would freeak out when they see an indian threesome fight infront of them... like wht happned just now at long john.
I got my Combo 1 down at a table and suddenly this indian fag at the table behind me shouted in Jibberish, the language of Star Wars.
I turned back, my ass still flat/round at his face and he was shouting to hi grilfriend/mistress/slut monster.
Typical indians... LOLZ!!! jk jk...
Then this grp of chinese youths sitting at the other end of the restaurant (believ it or not, secondary school girls.... LJS IS a restaurant... high-class enugh for you? Eat more LJS...) were gawking at him, literally.
I mean.. they're dressed in caps and chains dangling outta their pockets with piercings all over their freaking pimple faces and spiky hair with only a single girl following them... and they gawk at some guy in old jeans and a bad hair day who just shouted in the most gurgled manner anyone can at a girl. Lose the punk image if you cant play it, will ya?
Then Mr. Bad-Hair-Day leaves the restaurant and Little Ms. Look-At-My-Pimply-Hairy-Chest-Low-Cut-Tank-Top comes wiggling her butt (and head) after him and the guy just slams the glass door in her nose, literally. She backtracks in pain and Bad Hair Day Man opens the door again and stares at her. Mitch and i conitnued eating while talkin abt how i made fun of *someone's* saggy boobs today.
After a while, those ounk-wannabes kept gawking and soon an old timer biker sitting beside me went up in a hurry. Some started to leave the restaurant. i turned back and yeah well... whoopee... another typical indian fight; guy fights guy because girl played with the wrong person's balls.
Then the bad hair day guy grabs a cab and pulls the one who's gonna get her genitals torn open tonight into the cab from the other guy with the white shirt.
then i dunno wht happned, a police car came, the grp of indian gangsters sitting outside LJS quickly stood up and cowered together in fear (oh, now you;re scared? Go ahead and walk with ur chest pushed forward and ur arms swinging side to side somemore.) Then bad hair Day guy's taxi comes back out of nowehere... bing bang boom.. next thhing u knew.. Bad hair Day's with his back on the grass, and the two policemen looking down at him. Pee on him for Pete's sake!
Who's Pete?
The Punk-ies quickly gathered their balls from the ground and left the restaurant.... not forgetting to look around with high noses and puting lips. Yeah sure.. act-tough.
Mitch and i finished our dinner (actually.. mitch didnt.. she was full so we did the sensible thing... ta-pau lor...). Everyone else in the restaurant had already left earlier so we were the last ones. Typical FSV students...
A stretcher was.... stretched.... on the grass patch infront of ljs. Mitch was "oh-my-gawd"-ish at the stretcher.... which had noone on it.
Bad Hair Day man was upright and standing (I knew it... drunkards just love to play that facade of fainting infront of a policemen. Acting cute, maybe?) and he started getting closer to the slut with a torn clitoris (ooo... that;s gotta hurt...) .. with mitch and i inching away from them cos the girl's hair was within smelling distance. -.-
Everyone else around was gawking at them. Some old people, the real ah bengs, sat comfortably where they were and commented on how the indians were fighting. Well....
it's alwasy like that.... girl sleep with another guy... guy not happy.. guy fights... girl pleads... girl commmits suicide.. or maybe... run away... family gets involved, uncles get angry, girl runs from home.. get s new boyfreind.. cycle repeats.
Typical.... even Vicky is getting that kind of gimmick with his cousins!
So today was my acting day.
Fun.
lots of stuff happened.... or something.
Yeah...
didnt hug the girl.. i didnt WANT to. geez man.. she looked like Ms. Danz Tan! I cant freaking have sex with my NCC officer!
and the female lead was taller than me... so its like.. wht the hell's a shorty gay boy like me having sex with a tall nipples-about-to-show-from-bra girl like her???
oh well... saw a few "exposures" today.
if she was my type i'll be oooo so..... ahem.... now...
The crew (not my crew.. this grp.. according to mitch... is my crew's rival. i mean.. well... they have great talents and a great storyline. Ok im not being sarcastic.) managed to finish NINE scenes in 10 hrs! That's so wow.... my script has only four scenes. boo..... and a childish storyline to add (of course, im saying this iwth a heartache so dont u freaking add on to it!) .
but for every grp.. there are up and downs in stuff they do. *shrugs*.
Tomorrow's the last day of filming. I'll be dying tomorrow.... it says so in the script.
Hmm... i'm thinking of getting a digital camera (oh dear.. i broke my own cardinal rule: NO DIGITALS) .. maybe one like Shaun's.. a lumix... semi-pro (or is it a pro?)... just like his.... :)
I think it'll be more practical than a video caemra..... cos a video camera like mine... you cant hide it. EVen if your life depended on it.
In singapore, you take out a video cam like mine and people will start flocking towards you, calling the police, giving Osama-stares and stuff. Plus.. you need to answer a whole lot of questions once your camera stops rolling.
Whereas for a digicam... you take it out.. focus it... snap...hide it back down. :)
great for voyeurism.
and people wont even know you took a pic of that mole on their thigh... inner... thigh.
Amyways a camera is a camera.. its meant to capture details. A video camera was meant to record motion pictures. You want details on a videocam, you need to zoom in onto the details you want.. otherwise the resolution wont allow you to see it. Film is different though. If i had a 35mm film camera, i'll be the gay-est boy alive.
Cos for a 35mm film camera, any frame you take out, has a resolution that is as good as that 10 year old analog camera you have in your storeroom (or wherever you keep it, you sadists!) . So you can blow up the frame you like n your film to maybe... as big as ur comp screen!
And u cant carry film cameras around. You'll die when you break ur back.
Well...
Anyways tomorrow i'll be touching upon (myself... LOLZ!!! ok sorry... crude joke) sex and teenagers.
Just a hint.... I DONT MIND.
Friday, August 12, 2005
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Okay.. so i was in my car (wah.. mine...) at the traffice light along lentor road/lane/ave (i dunno!!!) and i thought i saw a bus driving weirdly.. lolz... weirdly cos.. it was slanted... -.-
it was riding on its hind-wheels.(hind wheels... -.- )
.... ok duh it was being TOWED bu a HUGE pick up truck. Lolz drivers would definitely hate to be picked up by one of those. Car wheelie anyone?
So this bus had its front doors HANGING loosely... a cracked windshield that showed off to me how big of a crack a crack can be (entire windscreen?) and its radiotor cover was gone and its left fender was gaping wide.
So i thought maybe the bus driver had a fight so yeah.
Then behind it i saw a trolley.
Yeah.. supermarket trolleys..... some old chinese lady was running with it. LOLZ....
i saw a trailer or sth to carry construction vehicles.. but on it wasnt the Bangla-hotrod.... it was an APC!!!
How did i noe? well.. it had tracks... it was in ugly green... in had a funky sleek turret and it had MUD (!!!!) on its lower hull.
so i tried to piece everything together.
Tank on trailer.... empty bus riding on hind-wheels...
Hide and seek gone wrong.
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Savage Cravings, my 2nd video project, realeased it results today (ok... sentence structure was wrong.)
The video got an A. Best in the cohort i heard.
I would like to tank.... no.. thank.... my talents for their super-cooperation with swinging booms and a cameraman in tight-fitting "Police" shirt.
Patrick Cheng (Hi, Patrick....) gave us our indidivdual marks (so far) too... I got an A.... but he told me to watch out (Somebody gonna get-a hurt reaaaallll baaaddd...) cos ive been late a gezillion spongebob times and if i could end up in the B or B+ range.
I blame the government.
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Tomorrow will be a nice day hopefully. Once again i'm being picked up to play a role in a video.
I wanted to anyways. I NEED to.... To forgive my sins for the previous time i acted in Justin-a's (My bearded director) first video proj.
So tml ill be playing as a client of a guy who has sex with his wife and gets killed in the end when the fuck-ee stabs a voodoo doll representing me in the chest. So i get a heart attack. Then i die.
and i get the first scene!! whoo!!!. lame.
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Im still fiddling arond with my keyboard. :) ... I thnk i got the first part of Bethoven's Romance "in F major Opus 40" (-.-) smoothly..... for my right hand at least.... since my right is the... ahem... one that does.... a lot of things?
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There's this girl... whome i think i havea crush on.... she's in canoe.... she looks like someone i noe in North View Sec 3 (whom i also have abit of a feeling for).... she's a bit blur... she's petite.... ooohhh.....
There's this another girl... in my course... whom im looking at frm a far... she looks like Don's mom... and i cant give much details cos SOME PEOPLE (wink wink)...... yeah....
but.. oooohhh....
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Die Gefühle is progressing real well. I liek it.
I visited The M Workshop down at Sunshine Plaza a few days ago.... THEY WERE CLOSED AGAIN!!! LOLZ.... BUT..... it wasnt really closed.... Channel U was FILIMING in there! In that 3 by 9 metres unit.
Apparently Bernard's master, Calvin Tan, won a huge award thingy in Europe.
Bernie has updated his model showcase by numbers. I saw a few new tanks.
I even saw a tank i ordered from Bernard right before i disappeared.. an SU-152. I guess they thought i was long gone so they built a nice model out of it. I found a T34-85 tank too. The EXACT same tank that i made for DONALD for his birthday (I hope it's still fine... cos im making another tank for him. Surprise!!)
OOoooohh.... my love.... i hope Donald is taking care of you.... I Trust Him....
This was how it looked like when i first completed the thing.
Funnily... the guy who made the model surprisingly did the paintjob exactly like mine. Chipping and all that. I'll show u the pic soon.
And WOOTZ~~!!!! My model is also DISPLAYED up there!!!!! The Sd-Kfz 222 is there!!!!
Yeah baby...
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Die Gefühle.... Here comes the pics!!!! Those not interested in modelling please excuse us.
That's rubbish, you say. It's not.
Test fitting the Hotchkiss... hmm... its not perfect.. but okay... :)
In comes the two men/boys.... men-boys.. whoo!! freaks!... err.. the grave marking and stand-in for the tree.
Do I really wanna place that dead guy there? Yes i do!
Hmm... layout seems fine... the figures and all that are just stand-ins... the Hotchkiss will be there though..
A fw days ago i went down to Art Friend in bras basah road (thanks, Shaun! and no; touching me all day wun turn me gay!) and found me some SWEET things for modelling!!!
I went material shopping and spent abt 70 over on stuff like wires... aluminium sheets.. styrene sheets.. plaster of paris... moss (yeah.. moss!!).... basswood... and other things that turn girls off.... which accounts for 70 percent of my blog readership.
There goes my 70 percent...
So i got me some Reindeer Moss.
I think they call it reindeer moss... cos. duh... they grow on reindeers!!!
-.-
But who cares?!!!
"I do~!"
*ah-bush!*
Wootz~~!!!! nice nice!! too bad i will be painting over it. oh well..
BWAHAHAH!!!! in the jungle.. the mighty jungle....
And that time in M Workshop.. i got a figure kit for this diorama.
So it goes.. i gotta set the theme in Autumn 1942... just so that the istorical accuracy of the uniform is there.
I wouldnt care less if Bernie didnt ask to see the finished product! He's critical on everything i do on modelling!
So we'll be using him as our sex slave for this project...
but before we can screw him, we gotta glue him!
and we dont wanna get messy do we? So give him *a* head! A tiny one will do!
anyways i cant paint heads or figures for nuts or anyone's nuts. But i think ill try my luck for clothes but for the head.. i thnk i'll ask Samuel, a guy our age who is a professionel figure painter (-.- .... he earns hundred over for a little 3.5cm figure he paints... zz... ) to paint our guy's head for me.
Ooo... what;s a soldier without a rifle? A masturbator~~~
lame...
Now for the grounwork... contours!!!
I used a very icky-sticky-smelly mix of filler powder and water. Filler poweder is basically used in bathrooms (disgusted yet?) to seal tiles (u should be disgusted already. Imagine licking the area behind ur toilet bowl.)
Then i spread-ed the mix over everything...
But ooo!! EEE!!! ooo!!! AAA!!! aaa!!! (bing bang walla walla hong kong...) The countours are jagged and uneven... so i added mre water to my mix....
used a huge brush... and...
walla... mashed potatoes...
I gay-ly sprinkled sand on the area where the road would be (and in my pants... oooo....).....
Threw insome synthetic grass as well for the other areas... then used some tiny rocks mixed with fine sand to represent a mound for the grave....
added some George W. Bush as well...
But then after all these... things were still loose..... like some of us here... LOLZ~~
So i took out an ancient mix of white glue and water which has been stagnant for abt 3 months and used an old brush to apply this concentrateed white glue solution onto all evil on the diorama!! mauahah!!! White triumphs over browns and greens and yellows!!! mUAHAHAHHA!!!! zzz
I also drilled some holes at a little spot and inserted a few bunches of brush bristles to represent... hay.... Hey~~~
Then poop~! in come the hotchkiss...
The thing now is still pretty plain..
Pretty and plain maybe?
but i'll add more things soon to tie the setting together.
Wll be making the tree soon....
then the figures...
Then PAINTING the diorama~~!!!
whoo hooo!!!
Till then.. Here's the Masturbating Modeller saying,"Kia~~~Kia~~!!! "
*you damned jap-lovers understand that right?"
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Thursday, August 11, 2005
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i keep seeing this old man.
Old... grey... wrinkled... skinny...
He stoops over when he walks and has difficulty moving his left limbs... a sign of a stroke?
its been years now.
He lives alone. I know... One day i absentmindedly went up to his unit one day after school. He looked up from where he was sitting in the balcony and gave me a nice warm smile.
i smiled and ran.
I was thinking how it was if your children just leave u like that.
I keep reading stories abt how a parent feels immense pain when their children just disappear from thie sight and stuff. I have no idea how that feels. Maybe in the future. But not now.
Like you know... you have a son... your only son.
Such an intelligent boy. Naive somewhat but such and adorable son! and he's yours!
Soon,.. your son proudly drags home another kid from school, beams up and says,"This is my friend!"
Before you know it, he scores his first A in class.
Then another....
And he fails his first test. Oh the rage you feel.
But then he brings back sth from art class just for you. Feel better?
Next thing you rememebr is your son's antics on the hotel room bed while you and your life partner are at a holiday in.. say... Turkey.
You son grows..... he gets wiser... ou start to tell him about life and puberty.
He shouts at you for the first time.
he starts going out later and later in the night and he starts leaving the house and irregular times at the drop of a hat.
Then you realise that he's not around at night anymore.
No... he's not out being bad. He's not doing anything wrong. Just your son having some time with his friends.
Then soon... he doesnt call home.
You call him. After a few times, he starts shouting over the phone everytime you call.
3 nights, he;s not home.
6 nights...
19 nights...
nothing.
Then you start to realise.... when he comes home... it's emptiness.
he sleeps.
he still studies.
he eats.
he watches sme tv.
then he goes out again. For the whole day.
When was the last time he showed off some funny antics at you and you partner?
Who knows... maybe you'll never get to experience that again.
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The old man died soon enough.
the only people that turned up was his kind niece and her family, the residents that know him and the undertakers.
Where are his children?
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
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Ah yes.. today...no.. yesterday... was Singapore's birthday.
I stayed in the heartland of YISHUN (make some noooooiiiiissseee!!!!!!!!) to watch this historical event.
and i tried my best to capture the essence of the event.
marcus and I (dion was sick. zzz.... and he lost his phone again....) ran through the crowds.. across the field.... popping here and there to watch the MASS of people in what used to be a field that noone cared for.
i went up to the block nearest to it... to the 12th storey... and OMG!!!!! THERE WERE SO MANY PEOPLE!!!
but everyone esle around me were interested in my camera ( i had my wide angle lens on and it just made it look like some futuristic submachinegun or sth... -.- ).
MASS of people! and that's not even all of them! there were more near northpoint! and wtf!!! is that and INDONESIAN flag?!? LOLZ!!!
When the flyby was played on the big screen, marcus and i were at the block beside 925.. 9th storey (that's the highest, man~~~) and a few moments later.... ZZZZZZZHHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM~~~~~~!!!!!!
the freaking F16s were flying above us!!! it was so freaking fast.. my camera didnt get set up in time to catch it. ZZZZ only got the sound though...
and great.. today marcus touched almost all the infantry weapons currently in our mlitary (and he has the tendency to aim cock-eyed.. LOL...) .. the GPMG, M16.. SAR21... sniper rifle... MILAN.... LAW.... lolz... names that will throw some people to the little "X" at the top right corner of this window...
"Do you feel lucky, Bei?"
Then night fell... i found a spot near the centre of the field.... it was one of the scaffoldings that had a photographer and spotlight on it. Chhildren were climbing all over it like monkeys! A few security personnel had to come down with their little LED torchlights and shooing eveyrone down.
marcus got naughty and climbed almost wayy to the top of tht two storey sturcture.... i just stuck my camera up high...
We climbed that.... one of those...
Then bla bla.. ... FIREWORKS!!!
I GOT THE WHOLE DISPLAY!!!
PLUS THE SECOND ONE!!
AND SARAH DIDNT GET THE SECOND ONE!!!
WHOO HOO!!!
its on the video below.
OMG they had a sequence for the fireworks... i thnk they took the idea from anti-aircraft guns. Cos it was just liek that! two streams of fireworks swaying left and right like how an anti-aircraft gun fires... and they ended it with an explosion of green fireworks! splendid...
i mean really!! just look at the pic! that's roughly how AA shots look like!
ok enuf war, audi... ppl are not interested.
DRT DRT DRT DRT DRT DRT!!!!
BOOM~~~~mmmm!!!
Then.. my favourite... the national anthem. -.- LOLZ!!! no la jk... cmon man..... for the first time in yishun... the national anthem echoes for all...
I looked back from my spot and found that there was a gap in the crowd directly behind me... like some linear force cutting through the crowd, revealing the grass. LOLZ... i blocked ppl's view.. =p=p=
Then freak! iw as running out of tape and the mini concert came on!
i threw away that malaysian guy's rap hippo hoppo but took down the TWINS..... with 100x ZOOM!!! do you know how far is that!?!?
and good gott!!! everything was shaky and pixelated!
but hey i saw wei shan and her grouppies scuttling below me.. LOLZ.. after i saw her beinding down and running... a WHOLE BUNCH of GIRLS... i thnk there were ten or so.. followed her as close as possible to the stage befoe the twins came up.. LOZ~!!!
then came the mobile column.
they fired blanks on their machineguns and low-calibre shells. WHOO!!!!
then duh... i started to imagine as if yishun was really in a battle or sth.... ahh... ..... romance...
i saw.. FOR THE FIRST TIME (!!)... the AMX-13!!! that freaking 50-year-old tank made by the French that is currently used by Singapore... The AMX-13 did a 360-degree turn with its turret (kncokin a few spectators on the roadside infront of 925 dead in their heads... LOLZ no la jk...) and rolled off... oo i think they changed the engine.... it sounds so War of The World-ish..
and FREAK!! i saw the HOWITZER!!! That HUGE gun-totting vehicle.... its like a mobile artillery or somesort...... the gunbarrel elevated and.... de-elevated... adn it drove off.... LAME!!!!...
but omg when they fired the low-calibre shells ...ZZZ.... that thing could tear a man apart!
anyways yeah... marcus and i ran as close as possible to the stage while the mobile column was slowly dripping into yishun (i thought the army was supposed to maintain a certain distance between a column? booo.... bad leadership...) and i saw CLARA~!!! (make some noooooiiiiisssseeee!!!)
then the fat boy donald... who doesnt look fat that much as before... lolz maybe its cos he's sick eh? literally.
clara's cousins were there too... :) (hallo.. ni hao~~~)
i didnt stay longer for Tanya chua and Nick Tse to get on (each other... =p=p=p) cos my tape ran out anyways... so i left marcus with his sister (not to you, Don... =p=p=) and lef for home....
i was at the front door (everything happens there, dammit...) andi heard tanya chua sining... whee~~~~
then in my room while transferring the video to the comp, i heard nick tse... whee~~~
its like... we're neighbours!!
LOLZ!!!
ahh yes.. fun day.....
Anything for Singapore, my friends....
Anything....
p.s. ... ... i thin kthey used the word "Motherland" in one of the speeches or sth..... and i think.... communists use that word.... nationalists use "fatherland".... democratics DONT USE WORDS LIKE THAT... i thnk they use... "the country"... :)
SIngapore.. a communist nation?
well....
Anyways here is a frame from the Twins video i took....
na bei i should hit myself damn hard for not going into the crowd and taking the video... SO BLUR!!!! SO PIXELATED!!! SO RED!!! COLOUR BLEEDING!!! SOFT FOCUS!!!
never again, audi.... never again.... Think of that person who likes the Twins so much that the person has the poster on the person's wall... =p=p=p *hint hint*
Monday, August 08, 2005
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There's this field opposite Golden Village Yishun.
It could be about a hectre large... green.... with some lonesome trees... and a few pitholes in the ground here and there.
A few weeks ago, some people came by and filled the holes with sand.
Then a few heavy machinery came onto the field.
Then trucksloads of white plastic canvas and tons of aluminium framings.
Damn the governemnt! they're destroying open lands again!
But then... tents started appearing over the field... a huge stage was erected... a widescreen porjector screen (innovation~~!!) was set up. The Fast Attak Vehicle was brought into a tent.... military webbings came up.. a firing range appeared... a leaflet was clumsily stuck on every door of the neighbourhood.
Ahh... National Day.
To go or not to go take video?
Should i go down to Benjamin Sheares bridge where "the most beautiful display of fireworks" would be ... well... displayed?
or stay in my hometown and watch this historical event take place for the first time? I mean.. im talking Nick Tse, Twins, FIREWORKS and a whole lot of "sniping" for me to do with my video camera.
Ah fark it.. im saying in Yishun.
I;m bringing out Clara's two little brothers, Dion and Marcus along with me too.
We'll basically be running about everywhere.
Ive scouted some locations up HDB blocks surrounding areas to capture the scene and i heard that fireworks are going up at 8:10pm... which by then ill be in the middle of the field... amongst a crowd of people.... taking the fireworks shooting into the sky.
And if sth were to go wrong... well... my video got it down. ":)
what? it's fun!! taking sth big going wrong out of nowhere... its fun!
Then maybe some upskirts of Twins, ya?
or of Nick Tse....
LOLZ!!!!
stupid flirt....
They had some test runing jsut a few minutes ago ... testing the sound and lights... (test the fireworks!!!). Finally... i hear the national anthem played loudly for the neighbourhood to hear... whee!!!!
lolz the other day..i thnk they were testing the fireworks... when i walked past the field to go home... i saw a bunch of guys in red forming around the field... i thought it was some Family Fun Day or sth.. so i got home... it was dark.. i slot in the key to my home.. pushed open the door and BAM BAM BAM!!!!!
ARTILLERY!!! TAKE COVER!!!! CALL THE POLICE!!!! CALL YOUR FRIENDS!!! WHERE THE HELL ARE MY BOOTS!!! I NEED MY FREAKING BOOTS! WE'RE IN A WAR DAMMIT!!!
BAM BAM BAM!!!
the sky turned pink... blue.. green.. red.... and people started rushing out of the hse and gathered to the corners of blocks facing the field.
Then suddenly.. while i was watching the people gathering at the block infornt of mine... a stray firework shot into the 7th storey of the block!! OMG!!!! There was a HUGE explosion and the few ppl were ON FiRE!!!! OMG OMG!!!!
So i closed my front door... got into my room, put down my bags, took off my clothes and turned on (myself.. =p) the computer... and started to do hoomework. :)
Cant wait for tomorrow.
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